oh boy.

lately, i have learned something interesting about myself... it's simply that i crave change, but i also fear it just as much. 

which is a constant battle in my head daily.

so i've had a lot of people ask me about this topic recently so i figured, why not explain. i'm sure you've noticed, but i am no longer dancing on the uvu dance team. three years taught me so much. how to love (give or take) twenty girls, how to work harder than i've ever worked, and how to follow my heart. which is what i did. upon entering my almost fourth year of the team i had some feelings of dismay, and thoughts that maybe i was just done. talking with family and friends about my feelings i decided to pray and let the end of the year ride out. we worked hard during nationals session. harder than i've ever worked before, and like i said, i decided to go with the flow. knowing in my head that there could be a possibility of not coming back, i choose to give my all in everything i did. i'm not saying it was all a bunch of roses, because there were definitely many ups and many downs. but flying into daytona beach florida i felt nothing but calm. nothing but peace... this is where people really start to question my choice in not dancing anymore. because the second i stepped off the stage after hearing that MY team won nationals. after all the blood, sweat, and many tears, WE WON! i knew i was done. i have people tell me that they can't believe that it was that easy for me to be done. let me say this... it wasn't. dancing is half my heart. it has been my life for as long as i can remember. yet, sometimes there are things in your heart that just change. I WILL continue to dance. just not a team anymore. 

change is a funny thing people. it comes and goes so quickly. sometimes it's simple and feels right. sometimes it's not. this summer has been a weird one, at that. a lot of change has happened. life changing change! but even this change can turn into something good right? right! i have learned what i want in life, and who i want in my life. i know who i love, who i trust, and how i should live my own life. no two lives are the same, and they shouldn't be. change is coming people.. whether you like it or not. i know that i have changes linesd up waiting for me and all i can say is... let life begin!

xxo, miss