just shut up and let me talk...

WARNING... THIS. IS. A. VENT. POST. 

so usually i HATE talking about myself and i hate making people have to worry about me or listen to me. why? i don't know... i guess i hate bothering people. especially when they act like they don't want to talk, help, laugh, or have anything to do with you. it's a struggle i deal with, and i'm sure everyone and a lot of you deal with it also.. 

BEST FRIEND.

it's nice to have a best friend. someone who you can just call and vent to, go on drives with, swear with (shhh no one is suppose to know this one), and belt your lungs out with... it happens more then you think. i tell her (my best friend) everything, and appreciate her a lot... which i tell her probably every day. who knows if she gets bugged by it? oh well she'll tell me sooner or later if it does. note to the wise... with best friends, even though they are your best friend. be careful what you say. know when to talk and when not to. be positive as much as you can. don't be afraid to tell them you care. and know you are one LUCKY person to have someone by your side at all times.

SCHOOL

college to be more specific. it sucks. literally. again... this is a negative post. so don't get me wrong. don't let me scare you for the little ones coming into college next year and such. but i... highly dislike it. the school part that is. school just isn't my thing personally. i don't sit still well, i don't like to listen to monotone professors, i struggle to listen being in a lecture hall with 100 people (good thing i'm not at BYU i wouldn't make it), test scare the shizzzz out of me, i'm terrible at them (i could know all the material like the back of my hand and still FLUNK a test), studying... HAHAHA i never had to in high school so i need to get in a new habit, and the list goes on my friends.

DANCE

dance makes college better. being on the team is HARD. i'm not use to being on a DANCE team... it's very different from cheer, and studio dancing. i'm still trying to get use to it. i think it's coming along but i'm not really sure. you know when you are around people of higher authority, such as coaches, and they are talking amongst themselves, and you feel like they are talking about you (good or bad) when in reality they probably aren't talking about you at all, or they are talking about everyone and not just you... HA yeah... i feel like that all the time. it's rough. BUT, I LOVE MY TEAM! they make all the worries go away. and the dancing is so fun! again it's hard... but if i get to dance that's all that matters. 

NEW FRIENDS/ NEW WARD

the new people are few. but nice! the new ward... i've been twice, so i'm still trying to meet everyone. i love my bishop and his wife. they are soo kind! and they care so much! i met my bishop's wife last sunday and she felt SO bad that she hadn't met me earlier. definitely made me feel great! i felt like i wasn't just another person in the ward. i'm still excited and looking forward to meeting someone new every day! 

BOYS

last but not least... well maybe least, the boys! ha ummm... let's see. what is there to say about them!! there are none. ha okay, okay, there are hot guys here BUT they all have girlfriends. BOOOO!! i've been on a few dates, hung out with a few guys and it's been fun! i'm going on a date tomorrow so that should be fun! haha funny story. the kid lives in the apartment right above me, and is my home teacher... is that allowed?! i think so! he's super cute so that's another plus! 

well there is my story. take it or leave it! sorry it's a bummer post. they'll get better i know it/promise!