two-lips.

okay, so those aren't tulips, but it seemed like a fun caption.

spring has sprung and i have more thoughts swimming through my mind than ever before. -- with this post i hope to not offend anyone, but maybe to lighten some thoughts or even just a bad day. -- lately life has been quite the roller coaster (with many heart dropping downs) that's the ride of life, right? but i'm living in faith, and one thing for sure is that i believe, more than ever, in my Heavenly Father.

there are some people who have the ride of their life and don't seem to run into many road blocks (or show them at least), and there are some who are just the opposite. yet, as i look and observe the people around me i truly begin to understand what our teachers tell us in class on sunday. we are "the chosen ones". in 1 Peter 2:9 he says; "But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light." --- how great is it to know the truthfulness of the gospel, and how great is it to have in our lives. 

April, 1992 (the year i was born, if you wanted to know) Gordon B. Hinckley gave a talking in General Conference, A Chosen Generation. in this talk he states:

"Truly, my dear young friends, you are a chosen generation. I hope you will never forget it. I hope you will never take it for granted. I hope there will grow in your hearts an overpowering sense of gratitude to God, who has made it possible for you to come upon the earth in this marvelous season of the world’s history."

this past year i have had to rely heavily on my Heavenly Father and try to put some pieces back together. it has been a very lonely process but i woke up today feeling not so alone. a friend of mine who served an LDS mission shared some words with me...

"I've come to learn a lot of times out here that things just don't happen the way we had planned or thought sometimes. and there are times when it's easier to see why and others not so easy. I've been with investigators that just seem absolutely golden, and they progress and progress and then for whatever reason they fall through. and you don't understand why. but then i just have to open my eyes a little and accept the will of God. Maybe at that time they weren't meant to take that step. Maybe i'm not the one who needs to see them get baptized, maybe it's another elder. Maybe there is more to the picture that i can't see as to why they don't do this right now. It's complicated, but at the same time so simple. We have to do what we can to do what we think is right, not only in our eyes but in God's, and do what we can to make it happen. but if it comes down to it, and that person decides to go another route, it is what it is...." "...But if we move on, with faith. and accept that God knows better than we do. Like i said it's not always easy. There's lots of things we go through in life that we don't understand. The thing we can understand is that something good will come."

today i am choosing to 'open my eyes a little and accept the will of God.' i know that if i continue in fear, Satan gains power over me. yet, if i continue in faith and do what i know and believe is right, the Lord will take care of everything. i am his daughter, and one of his strongest soldiers.
there is no one i would rather fight for.

a little something to leave on:
"You are not forgotten. Sisters (Brothers), wherever you are, whatever your circumstances may be, you are not forgotten. No matter how dark your days may seem, no matter how insignificant you may feel, no matter how overshadowed you think you may be, your Heavenly Father has not forgotten you. In fact, He loves you with an infinite love. Just think of it: You are known and remembered by the most majestic, powerful, and glorious Being in the universe! You are loved by the King of infinite space and everlasting time! He who created and knows the stars knows you and your name—you are the daughters (sons) of His kingdom." - Dieter F. Uchtdorf

i have been racking my brain as to how i should share

my thoughts and feelings in a way that would be understood. 

again, i hope i have not offended anyone and if not for anyone else,  

this was for me so thank you for letting me share.

oh, oh! if you are interested...
jump to lds.org this coming weekend to enjoy the amazing words spoken in general conference!

so much love

xxo.